Judgmentalism has always come easily to me.-Me, ‘The Skeptic’s Kaddish 45’, May 30, 2019
During my kaddish journey following Papa’s death, I struggled with being judgmental of myself. In fact, this was one of the primary impetuses behind that yearlong writing project… Frankly, I had been feeling FAKE by going through the motions of communal mourning rituals with my religious community, while lacking faith in a personal Higher Power. I knew that that Papa would never have wanted that, nor respected it, and I couldn’t stand it either… so I began to share my truth.
It has been my experience that those of us who are most judgmental of ourselves also tend to be judgmental of others. A particular acquaintance of mine struggles with this more than anyone else I’ve known, and while many of the sentiments that he articulates are off-putting to me, my own inclination towards stinging judgmentalism permits me to empathize with and pity him. In his brutal judgments of others, I hear his impossible expectations of himself. His harsh judgmentalism puts my own into perspective.
The funny thing about [my] judgmentalism is that there’s always somebody for me to judge.
When I was more committed to Jewish tradition as an expression of God’s will, when I was praying three times daily and very careful never to eat any food that wasn’t certified kosher, when I felt more certain of my faith… I found myself having to withhold many a comment about those who were less observant.
On the other hand, now that my personal commitment to daily religious observance has slipped, now that I have strongly embraced my skepticism and doubts, now that I see tradition as almost entirely an expression of human needs and experiences… I find myself judging those who believe in Something that they cannot prove.
This reminds me of a popular adage I’ve oft heard in Jewish educational circles:
Anyone to my right is a zealot; anyone to my left is a heretic.
Now, the Torah, as I’ve written elsewhere, is a legal tradition at its core. The ancient Israelites lived their lives according to what they believed to be God’s Word, and they established judicial courts accordingly to adjudicate the inevitable disputes.
Somewhat as an aside, it was Moses‘ father-in-law Jethro, a non-Israelite, who first suggested the establishment of a hierarchical court system, rather than leaving Moses to shoulder the burden of adjudication on his own. Notably, according to Jewish doctrine, only Jews are obligated to live their lives according to God’s Torah, but gentiles are still considered obligated to abide by the seven Noahide laws, one of which is: the establishment of courts of justice.
It’s clear that judgment has an important place in Judaism. Indeed, Deuteronomy 16:19-20 is written as follows:
|לֹא־תַטֶּ֣ה מִשְׁפָּ֔ט לֹ֥א תַכִּ֖יר פָּנִ֑ים וְלֹא־תִקַּ֣ח שֹׁ֔חַד כִּ֣י הַשֹּׁ֗חַד יְעַוֵּר֙ עֵינֵ֣י חֲכָמִ֔ים וִֽיסַלֵּ֖ף דִּבְרֵ֥י צַדִּיקִֽם׃||You shall not judge unfairly: you shall show no partiality; you shall not take bribes, for bribes blind the eyes of the discerning and upset the plea of the just.|
|צֶ֥דֶק צֶ֖דֶק תִּרְדֹּ֑ף לְמַ֤עַן תִּֽחְיֶה֙ וְיָרַשְׁתָּ֣ אֶת־הָאָ֔רֶץ אֲשֶׁר־יְהוָ֥ה אֱלֹהֶ֖יךָ נֹתֵ֥ן לָֽךְ׃||Justice, justice shall you pursue, that you may thrive and occupy the land that the LORD your God is giving you.|
These two verses, I find, are very instructive for us. For me, they are something to aspire to.
On the one hand, verse 20 makes it clear that we Jews ought to pursue justice. This is part and parcel of Torah. Through this lens, I am able to recognize and appreciate that judgmentalism isn’t inherently bad, although it certainly may be painful for me.
Verse 19 serves to clarify the ideal of judgment for me. Yes, we must pursue justice, but how does one do so? The answer: ‘you shall show no partiality’.
In other words, yes, we are creatures of judgment, and, yes, this may be not only natural but correct. However, we must always recognize and acknowledge our biases, and these biases are more than likely to shift over time, further highlighting their subjectiveness. So we must, of necessity, ask ourselves, “How would I describe my perspective? Who do I perceive to be different than myself and in what ways? And- how am I intuitively inclined to regard them?”
On a personal note, I am finding that the struggle of being judgmental has not gotten any easier for me emotionally over the years. However, the more I have been able to recognize and acknowledge my own mistakes and failures, the more I find myself capable of understanding the human failings of others.
34 thoughts on “Ethical will: Impartiality”
I find it much easier to pursue justice for both myself and others, if I FIRST pursue, “Don’t be a hypocrite” thus, even if I find myself judging another, the first place I do is look within and ask myself, “Okay, when have you done something similar” –
My fave verse for this is found in the New Testament of the King James version of the Christian Bible, Matthew, 7:3 – “Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? ” That keeps me safe in judging myself (which I guess, I consider self-discipline) but on the road to (hopefully!) being less judgemental towards others, even in feeling it! not just saying it/acting on it – unless, it does truly feel as if, ‘well, they are here, I’m here and they just asked me if I agree/what I think/asked for advice…” – 😀
Well said, Tamrah❣️
I agree so much!!
In an era where the new “spirituality” keeps claiming you should not judge i kept claiming you should not condemn instead, because we must always remain aware if something/someone is reliable or not, if it is good or not for us …
If it isn’t, it doesn’t mean that we condemn it but it means it is not good for us. Period. We simply use our judging capacity.
Preaching that “do not judge” kind of command people get afraid to use their capacity to judge because is is seen as a bad action.
So we end up accepting everything… and the bad proliferates!