Holier, or: Fragile

Your little face
Might just be proof for me of God's good grace
You utterly bewitch me
Your fancies so enrich me
I want to be

Your Abba'chka...
How can I assure you
That there's a God 
Though I s'pose you do not need it
You naturally believe it...
Holier than me

My Dear Baby
I so fear when you'll learn about "maybe"
The hurts you'll know as onwards grow
For much of life is simply show

My Dear Baby
I don't wanna say 
He ain't there for me

Every day
I watch you read and sing and learn and play
Your birth gave me such purpose
Of this I'm fully certain
That I've so changed

My love for you
It flows red hot and it is bursting through...
Wish I could protect you from painful disappointment
When He misses His appointment
But still I'll be

Your Abba'chka...
How can I assure you
That there is a God
Though I s'pose you do not need it
You naturally believe it...
Holier than me

Your childish purity
I cannot see Whom your eyes see
But whenever you need me
That's where I'll be

d’Verse

For today’s OLN, I’d like to share a poem that I wrote in August ’20, several months after I created this blog. As somebody who does not believe in a sentient, interventionalist god, it’s challenging for me not to poke holes in my first grade daughter’s youthful beliefs; but I always do my best to support her and her ideas. This poem reflects that inner tension.

Also, if you’re curious about such things, ‘Abba’chka’ is what she calls me. ‘Abba’ is ‘Daddy’ in Hebrew, and the suffix ‘chka’ is from Russian – it is a diminutive form. I made the name up for myself, and that’s what my daughter has always called me.


Let’s write poetry together!

When it comes to partnership, some humans can make their lives alone – it’s possible. But creatively, it’s more like painting: you can’t just use the same colours in every painting. It’s just not an option. You can’t take the same photograph every time and live with art forms with no differences.

Ben Harper (b. 1969)

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79 thoughts on “Holier, or: Fragile”

  1. This is nothing but lovely. And good for you, in forbearing to impose your own (non)beliefs on her when she is perfectly glorious as is.

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