Getting my prose on… (kinda, sorta)

I was going to write a blog post about my six-year-old daughter’s fear of death; and then I wrote a poem about it [instead]. That’s not to say that I’ve entirely abandoned the idea, as there’s a lot for me to say on the matter, but… it’s been hard for me to make progress on that post.

Even composing this account of my daily blogging is feeling like a bit of a trial to me. The more poetry I write, the less other forms of expression seem to be speaking to me… And I write poetry every single day, except for Shabbat (the Sabbath) and certain Jewish holidays.

As a writer, the consideration of how well I convey meaning in written form is of nearly utmost importance to me; but it has been becoming increasingly secondary to my sense of personal satisfaction. More and more, I am writing for myself as the primary audience. My poetry is written for me, and my ‘me’ wants – more poetry.

The more I explore and work at poetry, the more I find myself conveying thoughts in fewer words. Really, so much of what so many people write is so long… How many words does one actually need to convey their intended meanings? Even now, as I look up at the few paragraphs I’ve written above, I wonder… are all of these words actually necessary? (The answer, I think, is: ‘no’.)

I suppose that sometimes, like right now, I want to write in prose form to feel more certain that I’m being understood correctly. But this process and its outputs have come to be decreasingly fulfilling, compared to playing with poetry. (and it very much is ‘playing’)

Meanwhile, I’ve been noticing two divergent trends on my blog over the last several months, which have not reversed themselves:

  1. I have been receiving increasingly more comments and enjoying more active engagement at the ‘Skeptic’s Kaddish’ with other poets and writers; AND
  2. My total blog views per month have been dropping.

When I first noted that my monthly views were going down, back in September, I assumed that this had something to do with my increased output of micropoetry, for I had gotten into the groove of posting a lot of short pieces in a furious attempt to pen 365 poems for 2021 on Twitter. It made sense to me that some readers might have tired of so much micropoetry.

However, in the ensuing months, while I have been exploring many longer forms of poetry and have been posting micropoems only sporadically, my monthly views at the ‘Skeptic’s Kaddish’ have continued to decline… Even while the comment section of my blog has continued to grow increasingly active and full of engaging interactions with brilliant, supportive hearts and minds.

Honestly, I have never before enjoyed composing poetry and blogging here at the ‘Skeptic’s Kaddish’ as much I do now. And despite WordPress’s heavy, corporate emphasis on readership statistics, I’ve simply come to stop caring about them… because they don’t seem to reflect anything substantive or important to me.

Today, my creative blogging has come to feel like it’s at a perfectly comfortable place for me; and I feel so very blessed to enjoy reciprocal relationships with so many inspiring writers. For those of you who take the time to read my work and provide me with your feedback and support… no lines of mine could suffice to express my gratitude for your friendship.

123 thoughts on “Getting my prose on… (kinda, sorta)”

  1. It is the the thoughtful, meaningful comments that matter most, I think. Your work is amazing, David! You are very talented, write from the heart, and have a lot to say. โค

    Like you, I find that the joy is in writing poetry, though I write prose when I need to.

    I am impressed that you have decided to write for yourself. If you are like me, you are your own toughest audience. At this stage of my life, I am beyond ambition. Although I do enjoy playing with words, the purpose of most of my writing is to leave a legacy for my family. ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. I love that you write for yourself, and that you enjoy it so much, and completely comfortable with yourself and your talent

    Yes!! I love that
    In this way i get to learn so much

    Selfish i know

    But keep loving your writing

  3. Bravo to you for writing your “wants.” I think that is wonderful and as it should be in this creative space. I enjoy your poetry and other writing and appreciate your feedback on mine. ๐Ÿ˜Š

  4. I adore your honesty in such posts. It really is commendable, David. Been wonderful knowing you โค๏ธโค๏ธ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ™

  5. I rarely look at my statistics page. I have a low readership compared to others and that suits me fine. It is the interaction that I love. When I write a poem, I’m in the habit of giving a little context or acknowledging what events occurred that prompted the post. I like micropoetry but prefer some of the longer forms… A tanka over a haiku, and a renga over a tanka. Then again, when you get in a groove it is hard to stop. But I enjoy your prose!

    1. ๐Ÿ’š Dolly ๐Ÿ’š – I think I sorta got sucked into the statistics because WP features them so prominently on the back-ends of our blogs. But I’m over it now ๐Ÿ™‚

          1. Don’t even start me on it, David! As if I have ever abided by any laws except Halacha…
            I don’t think I have the right to intrude upon other people’s decisions or even whims, especially regarding personal endeavors such as blogging.

          2. I’m with you on that! I really avoid telling me people what to do – it’s even hard for me to be pushy with my daughter – my inclination is to trust her.

  6. words pale to hearts that feel.

    U know me David.. that’s about as short as I can get.. lol. ๐Ÿคฃ
    I love hearing your thoughts in prose or poetry.

    With 4,318 followers, I still scratch my head.. so I’d say the numbers are inconsequential! ๐Ÿ’–

    1. But I’m sure that most of those are not really around for one reason or another, Cindy… some are commercial blogs, some are inactive, etc., etc… I have become convinced that it’s about getting to a point that we have a number of real relationships here on WP, which seem to truly be lasting…. and then nothing else really matters.

  7. I enjoyed this reflection. As a wordy person myself, poetry has always seemed more difficult to write, and even at times a little vague. I admire poets for your ability to put so much meaning and feeling into a short piece. I also like how you are doing what you love to do, despite reader statistics!

    1. ๐Ÿ’› ๐Ÿ’› Rachel ๐Ÿ’› ๐Ÿ’›

      I have to admit that I have been pretty focused on statistics for a while… but that has started to change because there seems to be a disconnect between the numbers and my lived blogging experience.

      -David

  8. When I write a prose, it doesnโ€™t attract as much response as a poetry. I think due to paucity of time, people prefer poetry. That way, your micro poetry should get more response. But as you said, when you are writing poetry for yourself as primary audience, why do you bother about statistics?

    1. That’s interesting, Kaushal… I think it also depends upon the length of the prose – not all prose has to be very long.

      Also, micropoetry is very easy to read, but I think when I post too much of it, people get turned off.

      I didn’t get into blogging for the statistics… it’s just that WordPress sucked me in because it featured them so prominently on the back-end. I’m over it now ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thanks โค
      David

      1. That’s nice, David. The way you go on experimenting with different forms of poetry, does attract readers to your blog, irrespective of number of posts. What I feel is that most of readers don’t comment and some of them don’t even bother to press “like” button. The best thing of blogging to my mind is sharing of knowledge and feelings.

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