Physical ego, or: Immaterial id

Poetry Partners #144

‘Physical Ego’, a poem by Alex Budris of ‘Lost Continent Books’

webs of spittle &
a thousand
multi-eyed flies
like
words -
maggoty somersault
struggles
caught choking
out the
gasping
spidernest
hole
of yr mouth

consonants and vowels
a black mass
backache
toothache
bad bowels
& black-
-hearted atheism
tooth over tongue
crusted w/ black plaque
speaking
serpent tongues
unutterable blasphemies
speaking nonsense
speaking
gobbeldegoop

as fish flop
around
the room

quaff it down
bubble spit
chew
& rend
swallow hard
let it all dissolve
into acid bath
let it all dissolve
into the meat
sponged skin
meat machine
being
eating
excreting &
depleting
masses
of waste
teeming
w/ microbial life

cells flaking
dying
becoming
one with
dust-motes hanging
swarming
in
stale
slants
of sunlight
thru
smeared windex eyes
of yr brain
cracked eggshell
skull

in this life
we will shed
a thousand skins

vibrating
to the rhythm
of primordial
cromagnum
drums;
simultaneously existing
as so very many,
and the absolute-zero
of one

Lost Continent Books: https://lostcontinentbooks.wordpress.com/

A poem by ben Alexander of ‘The Skeptic’s Kaddish’

Gnawing at my non-soul, but stubbornly,
unrelentingly, ceaselessly, it knows
it has me; knows it rules me, regardless
of futile pull to savor sweet roses 
viewed through rose-colored glasses, cracked, I crunch
down on shattered shards; spitting, spraying out
sticky, scarlet globs of sorrows into
fraying kerchief, caked brown with faded woes.

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–Ben Harper (b. 1969)

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20 thoughts on “Physical ego, or: Immaterial id”

Dark, deep, and poignant.

ben Alexander November 28, 202220:55 Reply

😺🙏 Dolly 🙏😺

And the distress signal of a howling ego

“scarlet globs of sorrows into fraying kerchief, caked brown with faded woes.”

you poignantly capture. A heart ripped out, but you must continue I feel you must find the fragrance of the rose your heart and mind yearns for.

ben Alexander November 28, 202208:18 Reply

🤍🙏🏻 thanks, Abi 🙏🏻🤍
1. abvr November 28, 202208:29 Reply
  
  You are most welcome. 🤍🙏🏼

Alex Budris, tell me quickly
Is an important historical figure
I’m both mesmerized and shattered reading thoughts this morning
His deep reproach of the ego – tongue and mind- is also refreshingly welcoming and seriously needed. The noise pollution is overwhelming which he chastizes using terrifying metaphors.
I am in awe.
I only have one question.

Why are the primordial cromagnum drums the distinct point of departure?

ben Alexander November 28, 202208:18 Reply

🖤🙏🏻 Abi 🙏🏻🖤 ~ hopefully he will respond!
1. abvr November 28, 202208:28 Reply
  
  Oh yes, that would be lovely.
  Even if he doesn’t, a sharp read.